Wednesday, March 19, 2008
i love dance movies! (:
watched step up 2 the streets with manda yesterday and it was absolutely awesome! really glad i didn't miss out on it. ok i wasn't there for the storyline (it outright sucks and there's no character development) i was there for the chereography and i wasn't let down! gosh every dance sequence was just awesome and better than the first i think. it's amazing how good they are. and channing tatum (who's nothing less than hot) made a cameo appearance!
i've always believed that only blacks can do hip hop and all that popping, but step up has banished that assumption. channing tatum and robert hoffman definitely can dance. haha.
so yes i absolutely adore dance movies such as step up 1 and 2, dirty dancing havanna nights and stomp the yard (i haven't watched the whole movie yet just the last part but it was still awesome haha). and musicals too! like hairspray moulin rouge chicago! (: even the old school musicals like grease which i've probably watched like 20 times already.
i love how such movies can make me happy. to see them break into song or dance i can just feel all that energy welling up inside me. haha. (:
ok actually today i'm not feeling all that fantastic. it's times like these when i really wish to be around my class again. to be cheered up even when they don't know it. which is the best part of course. sometimes it's just about having something to take your mind off other things and not to be stuck in the office alone and start thinking of stuff that makes me sad. i mean sure i know i can text them but it's just different from being around them. so why don't i just arrange more gatherings? for reasons i already stated in the previous post.
i dunno if there's suppose to be a reason for me being down so much these days. especially when i just saw my class on saturday. maybe i'm just bored. maybe it's self inflicted and i just miss my class. maybe i'm suppose to be learning something from all this. but i don't know what.
i should just suck it up and not be such a whiner. but it's my way of letting out i think. and by doing this you (the reader) have the choice of 'listening" or not. so yup just skip the paragraph when you feel i'm starting to whine and you have no inclination to read about it.
hmm i should go rent a dance movie/musical to cheer myself up. but sometimes i think it's such a waste of money. and i don't wanna distract my sisters from studying.
anw i'm sticking to accountancy/business. i'm good at doing things even though i hate it.
tmr's good friday. hope i'll be inspired by service tmr. definitely looking forward to it. (: and definitely would enjoy it a lot more if someone went too.
it sucks how disappointment can kill your happiness.
oh found out something yesterday and i was pleasantly surprised but nevertheless happy. best piece of news i've heard in a long time. manda i'm so happy for you! (:
colleen quit her job already and i'm really happy for her as well! glad she made the decision to quit. seeing how upset she was with it and everything reminded me of well, myself. only difference is she can quit giving one week's notice while i have to pay almost 1k to quit so it's obviously not worth it. not unless i print money of course. but then again if i did i wouldn't be working in the first place. ok i'm blabbering again.
sometimes i wonder what my colleagues really think when i'm sitting here slacking/reading/sewing/obviously not working. i hope they know it's not my fault that i' not doing anything. 7 more weeks.
oh my cheque for my kenzo job is ready! like finally. now all i need to do is find out the address of the office and how to get there given my horrible sense of direction.
i'm not blaming you weiqin i know you're busy and it's ok! (:
and though i would love to be able to meet up with friends everyday after work so at least i have something to look forward to during work and i'll have more to my life than just work eat sleep, i recently feel less inclined to go out after work cos i wanna go home and help my mum with household chores. like i said before i don't have a maid anymore so my mum has taken over the household chores and she's still working. everyday she sleeps after me and wakes up before me. i mean it's the least i can do, to rush home after work to help with dinner and laundry. my sisters are both having major exams this year so i can't really blame them for not helping while my dad works really irregular hours so i'm the only one who can help out the most. so yes i should stop going out so often and stay home to help my mum.
and my mum doesn't even ask for help. i guess she's also resigned to the fact that i'm not a kid anymore and she can't expect me to be back for dinner everyday.well i'm going to prove her wrong. and when bf goes to ns i guess i'll be home a lot more too. i should really learn how to cook cos when i rush home i can be 45minutes earlier than her then i can start on dinner first. but for now i can't i can only stand around in the kitchen waiting for instructions.
nor can i iron. i need to learn how to iron. like seriously who at my age doesn't know how to iron?! ok actually there a still a lot of things i can do like wash the dishes and sweep the floors.
maybe i should get my mum to get one of those automatic vacuums. manda was telling me about hers that day and it sounds really helpful.
argh i'm crying as i type this it's so stupid. i fianlly know what it's like to have a lump stuck in your throat when you're fighting back tears.
i keep thinking of what ker yew said. about how life's too short to do something you don't want to, especially if you're not learning anything and it's downright mindless. LIKE MY JOB. like seriously what if my life ended today and the last thing i did was filed?! then again heaven would be much better than this.
i'm not being suicidal i'm just saying that if God really decided that my life ends today, i wouldn't have done anything meaningful in my life.
which is why i wnat to do nursing in nus instead of accountancy as originally planned. if you didn't already know i wanted to do accountancy cos of the many job opportunities available when i graduate and the relatively high pay. even though i have absolutely no idea what's accountancy about but seeing that it's such a hot course i set my mind to taking it. even if i didn't like it i could always do it for the money for the first few years then quit and do something i like even if it doesn't pay well. which by then wouldn't matter much cos i've saved enough during my accounting days.
but coming to the office everyday, seeing all those adults glued to their seats for practically the entire day, in front of the computer in the freaking freezing office, i'm having major second doubts about my 'plan'.
that's why i considering taking nursing, where i can interact with and help people. where i won't be confined to a desk everyday of my working life. where i'll be doing something meaningful for others and myself. i find that it can be a very rewarding experience.
but my mum thinks that it'll be emotionally draining for me to be constantly surrounded by sick (and maybe dying) people. and knowing how emotional i am, she probably has a very valid point. and i don't know if i can handle seeing so much blood yet. for all i know i might faint at the sight of blood.
i was telling weiqin that it would be best if i can work in the nursery and look after all the new borns but i don't have a choice.
but coming back to the stupid office everyday, i resolve that i will not put myself in the same spot maybe 5 years from now.
then i thought of teaching but my mum reminded me that i couldn't handle those bratty st stephen's boys.
is there really nothing i'm good at?
it's all very confusing.
if only God could provide direct answers for problems like this.
i miss my class. only they could distract me from my sucky life.
i love dance movies! (:
watched step up 2 the streets with manda yesterday and it was absolutely awesome! really glad i didn't miss out on it. ok i wasn't there for the storyline (it outright sucks and there's no character development) i was there for the chereography and i wasn't let down! gosh every dance sequence was just awesome and better than the first i think. it's amazing how good they are. and channing tatum (who's nothing less than hot) made a cameo appearance!
i've always believed that only blacks can do hip hop and all that popping, but step up has banished that assumption. channing tatum and robert hoffman definitely can dance. haha.
so yes i absolutely adore dance movies such as step up 1 and 2, dirty dancing havanna nights and stomp the yard (i haven't watched the whole movie yet just the last part but it was still awesome haha). and musicals too! like hairspray moulin rouge chicago! (: even the old school musicals like grease which i've probably watched like 20 times already.
i love how such movies can make me happy. to see them break into song or dance i can just feel all that energy welling up inside me. haha. (:
ok actually today i'm not feeling all that fantastic. it's times like these when i really wish to be around my class again. to be cheered up even when they don't know it. which is the best part of course. sometimes it's just about having something to take your mind off other things and not to be stuck in the office alone and start thinking of stuff that makes me sad. i mean sure i know i can text them but it's just different from being around them. so why don't i just arrange more gatherings? for reasons i already stated in the previous post.
i dunno if there's suppose to be a reason for me being down so much these days. especially when i just saw my class on saturday. maybe i'm just bored. maybe it's self inflicted and i just miss my class. maybe i'm suppose to be learning something from all this. but i don't know what.
i should just suck it up and not be such a whiner. but it's my way of letting out i think. and by doing this you (the reader) have the choice of 'listening" or not. so yup just skip the paragraph when you feel i'm starting to whine and you have no inclination to read about it.
hmm i should go rent a dance movie/musical to cheer myself up. but sometimes i think it's such a waste of money. and i don't wanna distract my sisters from studying.
anw i'm sticking to accountancy/business. i'm good at doing things even though i hate it.
tmr's good friday. hope i'll be inspired by service tmr. definitely looking forward to it. (: and definitely would enjoy it a lot more if someone went too.
it sucks how disappointment can kill your happiness.
oh found out something yesterday and i was pleasantly surprised but nevertheless happy. best piece of news i've heard in a long time. manda i'm so happy for you! (:
colleen quit her job already and i'm really happy for her as well! glad she made the decision to quit. seeing how upset she was with it and everything reminded me of well, myself. only difference is she can quit giving one week's notice while i have to pay almost 1k to quit so it's obviously not worth it. not unless i print money of course. but then again if i did i wouldn't be working in the first place. ok i'm blabbering again.
sometimes i wonder what my colleagues really think when i'm sitting here slacking/reading/sewing/obviously not working. i hope they know it's not my fault that i' not doing anything. 7 more weeks.
oh my cheque for my kenzo job is ready! like finally. now all i need to do is find out the address of the office and how to get there given my horrible sense of direction.
watchin u;
at 7:31 PM
Monday, March 17, 2008
i'm not blaming you weiqin i know you're busy and it's ok! (:
and though i would love to be able to meet up with friends everyday after work so at least i have something to look forward to during work and i'll have more to my life than just work eat sleep, i recently feel less inclined to go out after work cos i wanna go home and help my mum with household chores. like i said before i don't have a maid anymore so my mum has taken over the household chores and she's still working. everyday she sleeps after me and wakes up before me. i mean it's the least i can do, to rush home after work to help with dinner and laundry. my sisters are both having major exams this year so i can't really blame them for not helping while my dad works really irregular hours so i'm the only one who can help out the most. so yes i should stop going out so often and stay home to help my mum.
and my mum doesn't even ask for help. i guess she's also resigned to the fact that i'm not a kid anymore and she can't expect me to be back for dinner everyday.well i'm going to prove her wrong. and when bf goes to ns i guess i'll be home a lot more too. i should really learn how to cook cos when i rush home i can be 45minutes earlier than her then i can start on dinner first. but for now i can't i can only stand around in the kitchen waiting for instructions.
nor can i iron. i need to learn how to iron. like seriously who at my age doesn't know how to iron?! ok actually there a still a lot of things i can do like wash the dishes and sweep the floors.
maybe i should get my mum to get one of those automatic vacuums. manda was telling me about hers that day and it sounds really helpful.
argh i'm crying as i type this it's so stupid. i fianlly know what it's like to have a lump stuck in your throat when you're fighting back tears.
i keep thinking of what ker yew said. about how life's too short to do something you don't want to, especially if you're not learning anything and it's downright mindless. LIKE MY JOB. like seriously what if my life ended today and the last thing i did was filed?! then again heaven would be much better than this.
i'm not being suicidal i'm just saying that if God really decided that my life ends today, i wouldn't have done anything meaningful in my life.
which is why i wnat to do nursing in nus instead of accountancy as originally planned. if you didn't already know i wanted to do accountancy cos of the many job opportunities available when i graduate and the relatively high pay. even though i have absolutely no idea what's accountancy about but seeing that it's such a hot course i set my mind to taking it. even if i didn't like it i could always do it for the money for the first few years then quit and do something i like even if it doesn't pay well. which by then wouldn't matter much cos i've saved enough during my accounting days.
but coming to the office everyday, seeing all those adults glued to their seats for practically the entire day, in front of the computer in the freaking freezing office, i'm having major second doubts about my 'plan'.
that's why i considering taking nursing, where i can interact with and help people. where i won't be confined to a desk everyday of my working life. where i'll be doing something meaningful for others and myself. i find that it can be a very rewarding experience.
but my mum thinks that it'll be emotionally draining for me to be constantly surrounded by sick (and maybe dying) people. and knowing how emotional i am, she probably has a very valid point. and i don't know if i can handle seeing so much blood yet. for all i know i might faint at the sight of blood.
i was telling weiqin that it would be best if i can work in the nursery and look after all the new borns but i don't have a choice.
but coming back to the stupid office everyday, i resolve that i will not put myself in the same spot maybe 5 years from now.
then i thought of teaching but my mum reminded me that i couldn't handle those bratty st stephen's boys.
is there really nothing i'm good at?
it's all very confusing.
if only God could provide direct answers for problems like this.
i miss my class. only they could distract me from my sucky life.
watchin u;
at 6:58 PM